After a crippling depression of 5 or so months and a lack of motivation for anything for that long as well... I hid behind smiles for a while to, but hey, life moves on ya know...she will find someong (If not already) who can take much better care of her than I could. I was holding back her from finding someone there to make her happy, she deserved more than a relationship that only made her sad because of distance. I did it because I Loved her unbearably, and in all honesty, I won't stop Loving her and I want her to have only the best in life.